My Thoughts In Simple Words..

Change..

2011-09-21T18:39:00.002+01:00

CHANGE…..I know what it meant to obama…..so powerful huh! But changes in FB, google and even the local news paper….. all in one go! CONFUSING –my word of the day.

Why all the big players in social networking domain are changing, be it the layout or adding extra features……. Etc, all at a time! When I look at it, it seems like Google is doing something, so FB wants to do something, so does the twitter or someone else. Even one of the local news paper changed their layout for online edition.

I believe that everyone will be using both Google and FB, but when they see similar features, or some extra features which are not needed..Does it make really sense? Adding extra features is fine, but If they are not useful or user friendly or not needed then what is the point of having them?

I loved FB the way it was and so the news paper, I do agree that for non-tech dubmos like me it takes extra time to understand the core benefits of all these changes, but as a normal person I want such stuff to be easy to understand and use, and I use FB for some of its unique features and gmail for some, if both are offering the same, I guess they lose their value.

I might be wrong, may be few days later, I might be writing another post thanking google and FB for their efforts to make social networking a lot easier…but as of now CONFUSING is the only word that I can think of.

Fiasco of life

2011-09-21T17:44:00.002+01:00

Spending days...Weeks...months in a lonely place …eating all the meals alone…doing all the things on your own….this is what I have been doing for the past 2 months…while ‘working on only week ends’ …

This is what I do during the week days….Refreshing inbox again n again n again……Whopping happiness when you see the phone ringing and get disappointed if it is about a silly promotional offer they are having…… (God, I hate them, especially when you are waiting for someone’s call or a text) and oh yeah! Today I ate the guy’s brain who called me from Vodafone to about switching from pre paid to post paid….. I was quite (me being quite….no way)for all the 10 mins he took to explain all the ‘benefits’ I can have if I go for postpaid (B/W Do they have a time limit to do this, because that guy was so fast, I couldn’t understand half the things anyway) , I couldn’t play my ‘dumb role’ anymore and told him 101 reasons for why pre paid is better than post pain?

This is how it went…

V1: Good afternoon ma’am, I am calling from Vodafone to tell you some exciting offer we have! But before I do that can you please tell me your phone number? (hello, you called me without knowing my number!)

Me: ok, here it is 0000000000..

V1: thanks for providing me your number, may I know your full name?

Me: okayyyyyyy….it’s Eswari parvathaneni

V1: Thanks parvathi ( PARVATHI????????????? Of course it is a synonym but that’s not my name)

Me: It’s Eswari

V1: oh, sorry.. I thought it’s parvathi.. ok I want to tell you about the benefit of switching from postpaid to prepaid ma’am, we are having a very good offer, you just pay 250 rs a month and you get 300 free mins to call anywhere in India, once you cross your 300 free minutes, you just need to pay 25p/m for Vodafone-vodafone calls and 30 p/m for Vodafone-other networks. This is a very good offer ma’am, and even the procedure to switch is very simple ma’am, you don’t need do anything (no need to pay the bill? :)) , you pay this much for sms, this much for STD calls, ma’am do you have friends abroad? (yeah loads :), but he didn’t wait for me to answer :(), we have very good tariff for international calls as well and roaming charges are absolutely less with postpaid ma’am. Do you want to switch?

Me: ……………………………………………………………..

V1: Ma’am are you there?

Me: ………………………………………………………….

V1: ma’am do you want to know more details?

Me: oh, no, thanks for all the details… (Should I stop here? No way, how can I do this, remember I hate playing mute button)

Eswari back to herself…. So you were telling me that I can get 300 free mins for 250 rs rental?

V1: yes, that’s right!

Eswari: ok, but what’s the point? coz I am getting 603 free mins for 201 recharge on prepaid!

V1: Is it? ok how much it’s costing you for each call (trying to be smart)

Eswari: approx 30p/m!

V1: you see ma’am, 30 p/m to all calls, but if you are on postpaid you pay 25 p/m Vodafone numbers and 30 p/m for other networks

Eswari : I think you are missing a point here, these are 603 free mins I am talking about

V1: yes ma’am , but you are paying 30 p/m to all calls, and with postpaid you pay only 25 p to Vodafone calls

Eswari: ok, I think you are not getting my point, I am getting more free minutes on prepaid than postpaid

V1: but you are paying 30p/m ma’am (a big sigh…………………)

Eswari: where is the point of paying here, I am talking about the more free minutes I am getting

V1:…………………………………………………………………..

Eswari: are you there? You want more details :P

V1: no ma’am, so you are happy with pre-paid

Eswari: Yes, I am!

Anyway… it’s the only exciting part of today! In fact for this entire week..

And why did name this post as ‘fiasco of life’…….staying alone is a not a fiasco, but missing friends is a fiasco…

Expect emotions in relations...

2011-01-07T10:29:00.001Z

Everyone do have feelings…some sort of emotions…love, sadness, happiness, angry.……..but having feelings isn’t enough, expressing them is important… for example… if mr.x likes ms.z its important to let her know about it.....remember one thing here not all the people are clever enough who could understand the feelings without being expressed, in fact once you are in the relation you don’t need to express it every day, but just saying 3 simple words like ‘I love u’, ‘I miss u’ etc frequently would do wonders..

There are people who says that they do love people, but it’s just they don’t express them, they don’t express because they can’t express,may be they have no time or they just don’t know how to say or maybe they don’t see the importance of expressing them… your busy day makes you run along the clock, you could be the person who calculates life in terms of minutes and seconds, or maybe you are the person who see happiness in coins, or may be someone who works so hard 24 x 7 thinking that you are doing all this for your family….or maybe you are the person who says , I will control my emotions/feelings for few years, work hard and earn money and in later years will shower my family with full of happiness………..it all seems to be okay…at least they sounds logical …. ….., what if , being a hard working personality who is busy counting the seconds, minutes and the coins forgets all the emotions he/she has….and when its all over, you go back to your family and try to remember your human side…..you remember nothing, then you will realize that your ‘RAM(HEART) is empty’, it simply does not work, because you haven’t used it for many years… or may be the other person in your life get used to it and molds her/himself as per your way and forgets about feelings…real feelings…..so it turns to be two machines living in one house instead of two people sharing life in one home…so always remember the person in your life always expects some feelings……it does not need to be in exaggerating or creative way….simple words do make a lot of sense ….do make sure to have some time for your near and dear..don’t let the other person think that he/she does not love me anymore….believe me if such thing starts it eats up their brain/heart and later nothing could be done to get it back……so express your feelings whenever you can, but make sure that it’s never be too late… everyone expects emotions so express them

Airports...............

2010-12-31T08:24:00.000Z

Yes, I hate airports…….because that makes people apart from their families and friends…..in fact the excitement of going to another place and meeting new people or may be getting on with the routine life doesn’t give good support at the time when you say good bye to your near n dear , your head down, still holding their hands or may be scratching their bag, clothes and say silly things like “there is something here on your shirt, let me c” or ‘your bag looks nice…where did u get it’..’ I am not crying, I am ok’……and say all the stupid silly things to make sure that U don’t leave ur dear ones quickly…..when it is the time to say good bye…it’s just the mouth saying good bye .. but not the eyes …and of course definitely not the heart……

My world is changing…..

2010-11-29T11:50:00.000Z

Yes, my world is changing, not that the world around me is changing…but it’s me the sole reason behind it….I have stopped to dwell on the negative side of the coin….giving warm welcome to the positive feelings…..I worked hard to move on …. (Of course my friends n family helped me a lot in this aspect)….and I moved on, the result is happy smiles flowering in my life again…and I am happy because now I am able to see all of them…..

So friends keep smiling and indulge yourself with tons of positive energy…

few sms in my day.....

2010-09-19T16:23:00.000+01:00

*A fantastic letter by a little kid who hates Maths;

"Dear Maths,

Please grow up soon & try to solve your own problems... Don't depend on others....!!" Good Morning

*Anybody can love a rose but no one luv a leaf that adds beauty 2 rose! Don't Luv some1 who is beautiful, but luv some1 who can make Ur life beautiful...

*Don't expect anything from life, expectations may hurt! when u don't expect, every moment is a surprise, and every surprise bring happiness....Good day.....

Is it so hard??????

2010-07-07T17:52:00.003+01:00

Is it so hard to accept the mistakes???????? I mean everyone does mistakes right…I do hell lot of mistakes…but I am happy to accept them or I don’t mind to accept them...but only when I am able to convince myself that I did a mistake and I do listen to people when they try to prove me that I am wrong….well, I don’t know why I am writing this, it happened today that 2 persons were not able to accept the mistake which has been noted by most of the people in our group…..the worst part was even them two knew that it’s a mistake but they are not ready to accept it….or may be they were not able to accept it just because I pointed that out!!!!! And on top I am not very good at convincing people, so may be they were not happy with the way I told them about their mistakes…..what ever I am not pleased with myself as I was not able to correct it and not at all happy with them two………..

Note: Did not want to write a post about it, but this seems to be the best way to let out my feelings, so here is the post……

7th Anniversary

2010-07-04T19:32:00.001+01:00

Ok, I wish I could write many more lines than this, but I am very bad at expressing my feelings especially the happy/good ones, so I am trying to sum it up in few lines, It’s been exactly 7 years that I met my best buddy, he has been there all the time listening- listening-listening to all the crap I said, laughing at the not so funny jokes I make, ready with the tissues (over the phone) to wipe my tears, supporting me all the time ….he is the one who knows everything about me and still loves me so much….Sameer thanks for accepting me the way I am and I am happy for you coming into my life, hope we will be together to share the good and bad for another 93 years… less I guess , but it’s ok I will adjust…..

One wish you could ask for?????????

2010-05-30T15:26:00.000+01:00

It’s nothing wrong to wish things to happen right? Imagine if you could ask god one wish and have it granted what would it be?

If I get the same chance I would ask him to fast forward June and July and give me the good news that I have been dying to hear. :P, Oh does it become two wishes, it’s okay god is good right, he won’t mind... does he?

So tell me, what would you ask?

One Missed Call....

2010-03-06T08:33:00.002Z

One Missed call!!!!!!

Wanted this Saturday to be the laziest day of the week….so planned to wake up at 10ish, prepared for it, kept my mobile in silent mode, told my mom about it and left a message to my best friend that I won’t be able to come online in the morning etc etc , but having the habit of checking the time made me to wake up at 7, there it is ‘ One Missed call’ from my friend…..for which I have been waiting for so long…..I never wanted that to be a MISSED call…but here it is winking at me saying that’ ‘I missed you dear, but u missed my call’….quickly checked the time….she called me at 2.30am……….2.30am..What made her to call me at that time…..was she ok? Something serious? Did she want to share something? All these questions rambled in my mind…..

She is my ‘special’ friend; we used to talk/chat for hours when we were far away by miles….. Now we are in the same city….but things seems to be changed now…. I do accept that we got busy with the jobs and routine stuff…. But a simple text saying that good morning/gud nyt does not take much time right? And these days we don’t even need to type much… one can just type ‘h r u’ to find out how they r doing…….I know that ‘It takes two hands to clap’ but getting in touch with the friend does not need to be a two way scenario right( at least not always).. so I do send some texts, wishes, and sometimes call her too….trying not to have a big communication gap between us……..but can I do that every time? No, some times I hope to get a text from her asking me how I am or just a simple joke or a nice saying, or a quick call of 2 mins would make me very happy……well having all these thoughts I have deleted her number for so many times( just from the phone …but not from my heart :P ), but as I said she is my ‘special’ friend right, so couldn’t able to do for so long…again there were one way texts, calls,….and on on….

So, after all these drama, I was so happy to see the missed call from her, I texted her asking ‘what happened?’ (tried to cover my happiness n be normal)… and god, believe I waited for so long to get the reply...n I heard by phone beeping , there it was ,the message from her,,,,,, I didn’t expected /wanted the reply to be ‘Nothing re called you by mistake’ ……………………………….I was like WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT??????????.... she called me by mistakeeee………………………seems to be a simple/common mistake right? But for me it brought me another yet a sad morning……….did had such experiences before like some times when I call her she says, hey can I call u back in 5 mins, which she meant 5 weeks or months….no reply to off lines /texts…..but today certainly it will make a big change…surely it will….

I do have very good friends… but having a lot of friends does not make u happy when u r loosing one friend right…same thing is happening to me….so do keep in touch with all ur friends( at least try to be)…because it’s always good to be in touch…

P.S: Just wanted to share my disappointment over the ‘missed call’…did not want to point out anybody.

Pranav Mistry

2010-03-01T16:47:00.001Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrtANPtnhyg

Thrilled to see his talent....just wanted to share the video...hope u will like it too....

365 days of my life....

2010-01-26T18:59:00.005Z

It was not the first time me watching ‘500 days of summer’ movie, but today I sort of connected to the movie (not in the way of that love story). Last year by this time I was going through the worst phase of my life…worst nahi…the WWWWOOOOORRST one… things were so bad that I could not even think about my future….it took me nearly one year to come out of it….. Though I kept on thinking the same things time did not stop for me, it did its magic and forced me to move on and luckily things have shaped into better condition……. I have started to see life in a positive way…god did help me…and I should also tell you that same year gave me some of the best moments in my life too….which made me to believe in that ‘there are two sides to every coin’…finally here I am writing about my bad time in a good day…..

By the way do watch the movie (if you haven’t), it’s a good one… tells you that one should realize their (opposite person’s) feelings before its too late…. of course there is autumn after summer..but you got to be lucky its a girl...!

Love At First Sight...

2010-01-11T19:46:00.002Z

Does it really happens…many of you might say that ‘of course it will’ it might happen right? I am writing this post after I spoke to one of friend who fell in love with her fiancé at first sight…..well its not a big surprise…but my question is how come one can fall in love by ‘first sight’…first meeting is some what better right…at least one can have a chance to know names….but love at first sight……. Heard a story of a person who fell in love with a girl whom he saw in a bus and spend almost a year to find the way to get in touch with her…..and to the girl’s surprise the first question he asked was ‘will you marry me?’….and to my surprise this girl is a complete believer in love at first sight, and you know what did she said to me… ‘ esh, he’d spend one year to ask this question, I don’t want to wait for another year to say the answer’. Wow...….she didn’t even give me a chance ask anymore questions….may be it’s the special feeling they had when they first saw each other…people say u get the feelings or the so called ‘vibrations’ when u c your special ones…...hey do they just say that…or does it really happens!!!!!!!!! Let me know if it happened to you……and how it happened...it myt help me to catch the vibrations when it really happens to me :P

Busy Buzz.....

2010-01-04T15:03:00.000Z

Dear all,

First of all let me wish you a very happy new year....I know its too late...but as this post title says I have been busy with my job hunt n now with my new job....finally managed to get my first professional job....

Remember I have been telling that I would actually njoy when I come back to india....but all that seems to be a day dream now.. did n't stay at home for too many days.....could n't spend much time with my near n dear.....now I am all alone again....different place n different people...everything is different now..........

wish that all these different things turn out to be something at least.....

will do my best to post regularly......

once again wish u all the happiness for coming days

Happy at Home

2009-11-30T10:19:00.000Z

Finally......Happily ....I am at home, sweet home...

It's been weeks to write something, I have been busy with my final last suppers/dinners n lunch with all my friends ..

I have been telling everyone that I would be leaving soon..but it took me nearly 2 months to leave them ......U know it's always hard to leave near n dear..speacially when you know that u may not see them again ..Being a senti-Soul I have been preparing my self not to cry by telling the other side of the story that I am going to stay with my parents , would spend weeks with my sister and would fill my days with full of fun by playing with my lovely niece and nephews and would watch all new movies with my friends......but nothing helped me when I had to say the good-bye lines to my friends..........I could not stop myself crying ...I did n't want to leave them ..seriously I know that I had to leave and I know that I cant stay with them for so long ..but I wish I could stay with them for few more weeks( may b years)...BUT I know that I will be typing the same lines even after spending another 10 yrs with them...because they are so special...

Hope to see them again....

Rewind and Fast- Forward.....

2009-10-16T19:40:00.002+01:00

Last week I was out of town and had very good time...

Since I came back , I have been thinking like 'oh last Wednesday I was on my way, last Thursday I did this....last Friday I was there' and wished so many times if I could go back to last week. This is not the first time I am thinking like this… it happened number of times...I am sure it happens to everyone right....who does not want to live in happy moments...... and if it is about happy times, everyone wants to cease/go back to that time or if it is about time where things didn’t work out in the way we want… we want to fast forward the time...

Right now I want to do both....first rewind it to one month or at least one week back, so that I could loose myself in a place which inspired great poets like william words worth and then fast-forward to one month so that I could be with my parents....

Wish I could get this Oil lamp like Aladdin n ask the Genie to rewind and fast-forward my life as I wish… he will be happy because I don’t have 3rd wish...

Hang on...I got my third wish....he need to slow down the time on Dilwai day....so that I can have more time for fireworks.....

anyways this friday is ending with the memories of last week...but I am eagerly waiting for tomorrow to come...

So friends….I wish you happy diwali…hope it adds many more bright sparks to your happy life...

My Wish List....

2009-10-14T13:33:00.001+01:00

1.Visit China- Don't know why but some how I have this special interest-bond with china…be it Chinese food (no snakes pls), Chinese people, Movies, Music, Books about china and most importantly Jackie chan...

2. Meet Jackie Chan...I like him very much, it’s his smile& sense of humour which attracts me more than his action sequences...the other day I was telling this to my best buddy and we made a plan...I would ask my would-be/hubby for honey moon to Malaysia or some other country near by china. So we can stop by china and meet Jackie Chan.....

3. Mid night walk in the town-- been asking/begging/pleading my friends.....wish I could do this soon…

4.Cook for my mom-- still remember the days when I used to call home and ask my mom for recipes....'amma........daal for 6 people...how many cups… how much salt' .....Things have changed now. I am ok with cooking..the other day my mom asked me ' you always say that you cooked this and that for your friends/flatmates when you gonna cook for me' then I said 'wait till I come back , I will cook for one entire week.. what ever you want to eat…u tell me I will cook for you' then she goes' I have spent my entire life cooking for you and your father now you just gonna cook only one week'..Huh........I am eagerly waiting to go and cook for my mom… hope she likes it..

5. Play volley ball/basket ball in the rain-I am not very good at both of them...but would love to play when it's raining...

6. Watch Fireworks- I love to watch fireworks, be it diwali or new year... just love watching them....couldn’t watch the new year fireworks for the last 3 years...last time I just missed it......hope I watch it for this diwali..

7. Want to be a florist...just love being around so many flowers

8. Want to go on long drives....pch wish I could drive

Small list right….would love to do these things in near future….at least some of them…

Confusion

2009-10-11T02:42:00.001+01:00

This is what I have been saying myself and to others...Confusion...

Confusing to choose everything… everything means everything let it be small or big one...

Want to go home and spend time with family....but don’t feel like going now

Want to express my feelings to the person I like. But end up saying myself that this is not the right time...

Want to spend some more time with the person/friends I like...But not able to..

Want to eat the food I like...But end up eating something else

Want to watch the movie I have been thinking to watch......end up watching something else...

Want to travel around...end up sitting at home...

I don’t know what exactly I should call my situation....But I am in a big confusing phase....

1st tag-innocent/guilty!!!!!

2009-10-11T02:11:00.005+01:00

Innocent... or Guilty?

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.

Ever told a lie? Guilty.

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.

Kissed a picture? Guilty.

Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent.

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? Innocent.

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Guilty.

Stolen from a store? Guilty.

Been fired from a job? Innocent.

Done something you regret? Guilty.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Guilty.

Kissed in the rain? Innocent.

Sat on a roof top? Guilty.

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent.

Sang in the shower? Guilty.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.

Shaved your head? Innocent.

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a boyfriend cry? Innocent.

Been in a band? Innocent.

Shot a gun? Innocent.

Donated Blood? Innocent.

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.

Eaten cheesecake? Guilty.

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty.

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty.

Been too honest? Guilty.

Ruined a surprise? Guilty.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Guilty.

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty.

Joined a pageant? Guilty.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty.

Had communication with your ex? Guilty.

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent.

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.

Hmm..its not so easy to fill up these tags ryt?......well tried to be honest...I guess so :-P

Ok, I am passing this to Shahid, Farishta and swapna....

Bloggie Awards-----Hurrayyyyy

2009-09-21T03:05:00.001+01:00

Awards for my blog.....Yippee,

I am happy to receive all these awards as a token of encouragement from all my friends.

Here they are..

1.A grand Welcome from My dear friend Rohini

Ro'..Thanks for such a warm welcome to the bloggie world, hope you dont mind for posting it belatedly ..u know the reason right that it took me so long to understand this awards concept..

2. Blog Buddies From Rohini again...

Thanks for inspiring and introducing me to this wonderful bloggie's world...I love this picture alot!!!!

3.One lovely award is from swapna

Thanks for sharing this award swapna, I am really glad to recieve this..

I would like to pass this award to Rohini, Farishta,Ekam,Happy Birdie...

Thanks to all my bloggie friends...have a very good day...

Does it happen to you?

2009-09-21T00:05:00.005+01:00

This is one of the most common feelings which always surprise me a lot …..How should I say…Okay let me put it in this way…

Today I was watching the foot ball match between Chelsea & Tottenham… well I am not very good at sports (not even @watching them).....Unfortunately if I don’t have the remote with me I will end up watching them like today. My flat mate is a great fan of Chelsea, he is one of my good friend and on top I don’t have any favourite team so I was happy to support Chelsea too…they played well and won the match. But the point is I know I wanted Chelsea to win…. But inside my heart, I felt so sad when I saw Tottenham players trying so hard to score or the Tottenham manager with the sad face because they were loosing…

This was not the first time I had such kind of feelings it happened/happens number of times,

Incidents Like

- when I see a person selling something and if he don’t have many customers. I feel like buying something from him

- when I see a beggar to whom people are not giving money- I feel like giving the money to him/her

- Last time when I went to shiridi my family had tough time( not a big deal :-) , because when we went out for lunch I forced them to go to a restaurant which was almost empty. later they complained that the food was not that great( it's not bad either), but I came out with a happy smile with great satisfaction that I helped the owner to have 5 customers on that day…:-)

These are just few examples….I always come across such kind of incidents ,be it is my favourite or not, does not always matter if I like it or not but still I will end up having this kind of special feeling… you know some times I feel so happy to have it. However, there are times when I questioned myself ' Is it just me having this kind of typical /strange/odd/ unusual or weird yet special-happy feelings or does it happen to everyone?’

Pursuit of real happiness!!!

2009-09-18T02:54:00.002+01:00

I come from a very small village, thus most of the people know each other very well…

When I was in school/college It was a big deal to go abroad (from my village)...but most of our generation did well in studies (unlike me) and been to countries like US, UK, Canada, Australia etc...So I didn’t think much to ask my dad that I want to do my PG in abroad , as always my lovely dad didn’t say no and supported me in all the ways.

I am happy with my life in UK which helped me to have better understanding of what I did, what I do and what I need to do ….but did miss my family, friends and little little happy moments too.. As most of you knew that I am saying good bye to one of my life time adventurous life in UK to pursue better life back home with near n dear…

Along with the rest of the world, my village has been seeing this hi-fi development too .Now going to abroad is no more a big deal. Now days when I ever I call home, it became as obvious news to hear that some one is going to a different country…

But Y? This is the question I wanted to ask most of my friends who came here and now asking everyone who asks for my opinion about their plan of going to abroad… by chance one of my cousin asked me to help him with his GRE /TOFEL preparation, I know that I am a big Zero when it comes to GRE, I told him the same, apart from that I couldn’t stop my curiosity to ask the same usual boring question ‘why do you want to go? , to which he gave me a simple answer ‘Everyone is going na, that’s why I want to go as well’ fair enough?, did not surprise me much…but then my keenness to know more about his choice pushed me to dig some more , so I asked him will he be okay to leave everyone/everything behind and stay in a different country?.....but this time it surprised me to know that its his parents who are interested to send him abroad , he knows that he will miss his happiness(at least some happiness), but he is helpless to convince his parents …….which seemed to be bit disappointing for me and for him too..

Well I am happy that I find a person with similar thoughts and he didn’t ask me the same question which I always encounter in this kind of discussions. I know some of you might ask me that why did I come here…well I had no one to tell me the situation and I didn’t realize that I am gonna miss so much... otherwise I would have a given a second thought before coming here….

I came across few people asking my opinion about their dream of coming to abroad, I told them to give another thought instead of jumping with high dreams and catch the flight…yet some people /friends did get me wrong, they thought that I was trying to discourage them because I don’t want them to progress/ I am jealous/ I am not supportive etc etc…But its not true.

What I meant/mean is if anyone is really serious about their aims of gaining international exposure or seeks a better future in abroad then it is not easy as we always think. Going to abroad gives us only the chance to achieve our goals but may not bring the good future which we always expect.If they are happy to stay back and see better future in India then they don’t need to follow the others path and be miles apart to the true happiness.

I wish I could have some one to tell me this thing, so that I wouldn’t have missed some of the happiness which I thought I did….. but no worries now I will be going back soon to fill my life with happy smiles(Hopefully..:-)

FriEnDs...

2009-09-14T14:55:00.011+01:00

Friends..

I am blessed to have good friends in every phase of life....

Coming to a different country was not that easy for me as I had to leave all my family and friends,but then I never realized that it was actually helping me to add another bunch of very good friends to my life..

I got friends through all sorts of communication net, work and very friendly flatmates ...hey recently I got a flight friend too... he is so sweet...my roomies say..how could you give your contact number to a person whom you met on flight..i was like what to do yaar.. he seems to be good,..and they goes tell me a person name whom you said bad... I believe people easily,I don't know whether it is one of my strength or not..but so far never had bad experiences , which made me to have a lot of friends.. They accepted me the way I speak, my ideas, my thoughts , my hobbies and finally my cooking( I should be really thankful to my flatmates for their patience to eat n praise the crap food I made ) too.. on the whole they accepted me the way I am.. all such good people turned my past 4 calender years in my life into 4 happy years with full of joy and many more happy smiles .....

Now I am going back home for good, I am happy but not so excited, I am not counting the days , I am not doing happy shopping, I am not telling my friends' hey...guess what I am going back..will eat this n that, will go here and there..will buy this and that etc etc.' like before when I used to go for a month or less than that . This time again it's my friends&flat mates whom i am gonna miss a lot and I don't even know if I am gonna meet some of them in future...my previous experience to get over such situations is not helping me to bring a happy smile on my face ....

I don't want to miss them..at least few of them..but I have to...accept the life as it comes..

Just Landed......

2009-09-10T18:21:00.001+01:00

Wowwwwww.. finally managed to get the little space in the bloggie's world..
I'm-Happy that I can put my thoughts in to words
Happy that I can share the moments which makes/made me Think-Do-smile-sad-etc etc with you all ..

Are they really missing something?

2009-09-10T13:15:00.034+01:00

I love kids...who doesn't...My half of the world is filled up with the happy moments that I have got from the duo -my lovely little nieces(Sweety&Honey)..They are two fascinating parts in my life..... let it be playing..talking..or simply watching them while they sleep I just love it ..

Now I got little problem with them... it's about their 'play time'.....

When ever I go back to India , spending my days with them used to fill me with the joy , hoping for the same this time I have decided to grab much more happy days -thanks for the summer holidays....but to much of my disappointment, I found these little little changes in the way they play.....my sweety likes my mobile more than me..she prefers playing with my lappy more than me..she prefers watching the cartoon to my stories........which really surprised me a lot....whom should I blame me or her..common I cant blame her coz I love her ..

I always feel that I enjoyed my child hood a lot...having the advantage of growing up in a village we had the chance to play with the nature .....let it b mud..soil.. leaves or flowers...everything had the space in our lovely little play time....I never remembered about worrying about the exams or home work arey yaar I never used to carry a lot of books..except the slate which I used to draw my playhouse...

I have decided to pour some of my memories in to my sweety's..so I have tried to introduce story books like balamithra and shared my child hood games like '7 penkulata-Lagori' and 'asta-chemma' I even bought her a new kitchen play set to play.......and I did make sure to tell her a story before we sleep...she seemed to be happy with her new playing habits..

sweety@vizag beach , I love playing with water specially sea where we can play with both the water and sand..we had very gud time and guess what she njoyed more than me to built this house...:-)

But does it gonna continue...I hope it does...so I am going back to India for good., hoping to see the happiness of sweety playing with the natural world rather than with machines and I really want to see her spending more time with the persons than PCs....

I am just hoping for my wishes to come true....